Life vests…

“Everyone hears what you say, Friends listen to what you say, Best friends listen to what you don’t say”

When you’re in a sea of quick sand, the life vests that keep you from drowning are the strong, independent women described as best friends, that have no need to reach out to. They reach for my arm and pull me out. They are my the ones that I know will look at me and make me realize there’s more. There’s more forgiveness in my heart & more love, untouched. The damage doesn’t run as deep as it feels, as drained as it seems. I may be drowning, but if we just take hold and stand up we will walk forward. Until then, your “life vest” will keep you afloat.

-A

Wishing wells…

If only wishing wells had significance in present day hopefuls. They would become a destination for our thoughts and prayers that seem to go unnoticed. At least our feelings would seem to be held by an entity that you know would consider it precious no matter the specs. No wish would be too big, too small, too impossible nor unreachable. Today, where do our wishing wells lie? In our loved ones? Our nightly prayers to higher beings?

My days aren’t full of wishes or dreams but my nights and thoughts are drowning in them. For wells would be a perfect container.

-A

City of Love…

“I guess that’s how serendipity works..” Phe Tran, the eldest sister who never seemed to hold an open place in her mind for the chance to understand the serendipitous feelings of what love offers. Passionate yes, intensity agreed but always a rightful skeptic. And yet at this moment she discovers Paris, again, however, this time in love & celebration of an everlasting notion of commitment with her “lifer”. He whose hands interlock with hers and fills the nooks of what at one time or many, was broken.

I’ve never held this feeling of happiness so much. It’s one side of the schizophrenic emotion that has a home in my soul and can only belong to my sister and her deserved heart.

I guess that’s how love works…

-A

Summer lovin’

Finishing off wedding season 2011 with 4 bridal showers, 3 bachelorette parties, 4 Jack & Jills, 4 weddings, 20 updos, 2 little black dresses & more happiness for the couples than I can express, I am left feeling a bit meaningless. I guess going through that many “always a bridesmaid” situations seems daunting however, it gave me a sense of responsibility. I was more focused on the love my friends were experiencing than love for myself or love that may have shown itself to me.

In some sense, I believe I did it subconsciously on purpose. With 2 weddings pending for wedding season 2012, I am comfortable that I haven’t found love (again). Its mainly because I have an innate feeling that I may not be able to find love as powerful, kind and passionate as I have. It has to impress me from the core in order for me to notice it. This may be what some people label as “doomed” or perhaps “bitter” from why I wasn’t able to keep the memorable, but yet in one case, destructive, love alive. I am hopeful yet hopeless all in the same emotion.

I am moved. It got to me. Stimulated the right side and gave the left side of my brain a break. I began to really feel again. That may be why my nights are occupied by fantastical dreams and my days are filled with reality. Avoidance is key for noticing love especially for 29ish single women like myself.

This summer was full of beautiful love…for everyone around me.

-A

My Thirtieth Birthday. In 3 decades, I may not have embraced every opportunity that was presented to me. I’ve experienced several life changing moments, known & unknown. Mistakes, certainly plentiful. However, who I am as I sit and write this, is a compilation of my flaws, strengths & weaknesses. I may not live up to many people’s expectations and even standards but I do exceed in my own visions & aspirations.  I will continue to do so, and welcome an interesting ride through this journey.  So, cheers to every goal, accomplishment, mistake, success, friend, acquaintance, enemy, past & future loves of my life. I’m thirty, and I’m still standing strong…although sometimes balancing on one leg. Open & hungry for everything new & exciting, learned & taught, loving & lost. 
-A

My Thirtieth Birthday. In 3 decades, I may not have embraced every opportunity that was presented to me. I’ve experienced several life changing moments, known & unknown. Mistakes, certainly plentiful. However, who I am as I sit and write this, is a compilation of my flaws, strengths & weaknesses. I may not live up to many people’s expectations and even standards but I do exceed in my own visions & aspirations. I will continue to do so, and welcome an interesting ride through this journey. So, cheers to every goal, accomplishment, mistake, success, friend, acquaintance, enemy, past & future loves of my life. I’m thirty, and I’m still standing strong…although sometimes balancing on one leg. Open & hungry for everything new & exciting, learned & taught, loving & lost. -A

New & unrequited?

Ambiguity. Wondering, daydreaming, thought provoking scenarios that occupy one’s mind. The questions of the lighthearted, yet ultra curious female awaiting her prince charming. I mean how are we supposed to know if he’s meant to be a part of our life? What I do know is that if he was then, oh what a life we would have. To be able to decide to interact purely by choice is the decision that can only bring excitement & fun. Intense & confusing yet beautiful & delicate.

-A

Regal feminism…

The diverse array of clients that pass through our businesses of beauty are all unique in their own devices. To celebrate International Women’s Day today, I write in support of empowering, strong, delicate, inspiring women that emotionally evoke our inner beings.

We live life day to day comparing, criticizing and judging other forms of ourselves when we should embrace the differences and absorb the contagious feminine traits that make us irresistible. Regal. Women have an innate sense of nurture that nature has instilled upon us. One that, as Audrey Hepburn stated gives us an enormous need for affection and a terrible need to give it. It makes us the lovely, stronger half. The intense mixture of drive and submissive affection can only be given to the gender that will control and know how to handle it. Perhaps we are the entrusted ones to bear children and reproduce the next generation because we embody the incubator of development. It may be observed as chaotic and erratic at times however the same erratic notions put forth in a positive manner, are the ones that will drive sensibility and growth for the relationships we as a human race take part in. Notions that may hold a burden to our souls yet are disguised as solutions to our very own thoughts.

-A

mrdanger:


(start scene)
A man sits alone in a dark room.  He sits attentively in a large chair adorned with alligator hide and the antlers of beasts long passed.  A small wooden table is to his right.  Atop rests a peculiar phone.  No buttons, no rotary dial, just a receiver.  
The man shifts his weight now leaning towards the phone, almost as if he senses something.
His velvet jacket sits neatly on his shoulders.  His cufflinks catch the moonlight shining through the window and cast tiny reflections on the wall of the ancient study.  They reveal leather bound books, glass jars filled with secrets and mysteries, and trophies only a man who had lived a million lifetimes could have acquired.
Suddenly the phone rings.  The man closes his eyes as he picks up the receiver and brings it to his ear.
A voice at the other end starts to speak.
“Alex…your city needs you…it is time.”
The phone clicks and then silence.
He puts the phone back down gently.  He stands up and buttons his jacket.  His hands tremble with excitement.  A smile creeps across his face.
“Fashion week…”  he says quietly to himself.
He walks out of the room and into the wilderness armed only with his mind.  The deadliest weapon of all.
(end scene.  excerpt from Menswear fantasies vol. 5)
—————————
hello old readers and welcome to my new readers.
I will be taking you into the deep, dark, twisted world of fashion as only I can.
Tumblr has granted me full access to the insanity of NYFW.
and I will catalog the madness in the only way i know how…
by completely embarrassing myself every day.
forgetting people’s names?  oh yeah
spilling drinks on models?  you got it
going into the women’s bathroom by mistake?  IT WAS A MISTAKE!
double posts?  or triple posts?  damn straight
my experience is your experience.
this is my first NYFW and we will learn together.
cry together.
laugh together.
drink together.
drink some more together.
forget to close our tab together.
walk home with our shoes in our hands because our feet hurt together.
lose our wallets together.
and ultimately, find true love together, as only the internet can.
isn’t that the goal?
so.
if you see me running around trying to figure out how to work this camera, or trying to zip my fly, holler at me.  
lets party,
alex



:)

mrdanger:

(start scene)

A man sits alone in a dark room.  He sits attentively in a large chair adorned with alligator hide and the antlers of beasts long passed.  A small wooden table is to his right.  Atop rests a peculiar phone.  No buttons, no rotary dial, just a receiver.  

The man shifts his weight now leaning towards the phone, almost as if he senses something.

His velvet jacket sits neatly on his shoulders.  His cufflinks catch the moonlight shining through the window and cast tiny reflections on the wall of the ancient study.  They reveal leather bound books, glass jars filled with secrets and mysteries, and trophies only a man who had lived a million lifetimes could have acquired.

Suddenly the phone rings.  The man closes his eyes as he picks up the receiver and brings it to his ear.

A voice at the other end starts to speak.

“Alex…your city needs you…it is time.”

The phone clicks and then silence.

He puts the phone back down gently.  He stands up and buttons his jacket.  His hands tremble with excitement.  A smile creeps across his face.

“Fashion week…”  he says quietly to himself.

He walks out of the room and into the wilderness armed only with his mind.  The deadliest weapon of all.

(end scene.  excerpt from Menswear fantasies vol. 5)

—————————

hello old readers and welcome to my new readers.

I will be taking you into the deep, dark, twisted world of fashion as only I can.

Tumblr has granted me full access to the insanity of NYFW.

and I will catalog the madness in the only way i know how…

by completely embarrassing myself every day.

  • forgetting people’s names?  oh yeah
  • spilling drinks on models?  you got it
  • going into the women’s bathroom by mistake?  IT WAS A MISTAKE!
  • double posts?  or triple posts?  damn straight

my experience is your experience.

this is my first NYFW and we will learn together.

cry together.

laugh together.

drink together.

drink some more together.

forget to close our tab together.

walk home with our shoes in our hands because our feet hurt together.

lose our wallets together.

and ultimately, find true love together, as only the internet can.

isn’t that the goal?

so.

if you see me running around trying to figure out how to work this camera, or trying to zip my fly, holler at me.  

lets party,

alex

:)

Reblogged from SUPERDANGER.
mrdanger:

Taken with instagram

Awesome.

mrdanger:

Taken with instagram

Awesome.

Reblogged from SUPERDANGER.

bryanteslava:

Prada.

Spring Summer 2012.

Reblogged from BRYANT / ESLAVA